So, I haven't really been blogging because I have been so stressed with my life these days and I didn't want to bleed that negativity all over the screen. But, y'all, yesterday's events must be documented.
I had a fantastically terrible day at school and I came home just feeling overwhelmed with life. I needed to get Ellie and Jack off the bus, go get Sam from Ms. Donika's, and then got to the grocery store for a few necessary items (necessary like toilet paper). When the kids got off the bus, Ellie resisted going to the store. I asked if she wanted to stay home and do her homework while Jack and I went to get Sam and go to the store. I figured it would take us about 45 minutes and she has never been left alone that long. She readily agreed and I gave her instructions to lock the door and not to use the microwave or toaster (random, but I swear that's what I told her...because microwaves and toasters are so dangerous).
Jack and I rushed to get Sam and stopped at HEB which is in the neighborhood and right on the way home. While I was shopping, I kept getting this worried feeling about Ellie. I couldn't shake the thought that she might be getting scared. I went to send her a message to her iPad, but my dumb phone was dead because it had suddenly stopped holding a charge when not plugged in. I wrapped up my trip pretty quick and rushed the boys home.
As we were turning the corner to my street, I spot Ellie and her friend's mom walking away from the house.
I guess as soon as Ellie got inside, she thought she heard a cough coming from upstairs along with some other noises. She left the house and went next door. Thankfully, the neighbors weren't home because they already hate us for being terrible dog owners. I can't even imagine what they would make of us for leaving our 9 year old unattended. She then walked a few blocks over to her best friend's house. Her friend's mom tried to text and call me multiple times, but, of course, my phone was dead. She then walked Ellie back to our house and proceeded to check all of our rooms. ALL OF OUR MESSY ROOMS! While I appreciate her trying to reassure Ellie by checking for the intruder, I am also dying inside that she saw my house in such a state (did I mention how stressed I have been with life lately?). Anyway, she didn't feel comfortable leaving Ellie home alone again (because she is a rational person), so she was taking Ellie back to her house when I pulled up.
Some final thoughts: I feel awful that Ellie felt so scared. I put so much responsibility on her, and she acts so mature for her age, that sometimes I forget she is still pretty young. I apologized to Ellie and all is well in the world. I am really glad she thought to go to her friend's house (and thankful that it was to a friend whose mom knows me and won't judge, haha). All in all, I was able to laugh about it afterward and chalk it up to a lesson learned. Tom, on the other hand, did not find it quite so funny. Sigh.